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I was always
a little in awe of Great-aunt Stephina Roos. Indeed, as children we
were all frankly terrified of her. The fact that she did not live
with the family, preferring her tiny cottage and solitude to the
comfortable but rather noisy household where we were brought
up-added to the respectful fear in which she was held.
We used to take it in turn to carry small delicacies which my mother
had made down from the big house to the little cottage where Aunt
Stephia and an old colored maid spent their days. Old Tnate Sanna
would open the door to the rather frightened little messenger and
would usher him-or her - into the dark voor-kamer, where the
shutters were always closed to keep out the heat and the flies.
There we would wait, in trembling but not altogether unpleasant.
She was a tiny little woman to inspire so much veneration. She was
always dressed in black, and her dark clothes melted into the
shadows of the voor-kamer and made her look smaller than ever. But
you felt. The moment she entered. That something vital and strong
and somehow indestructible had come in with her, although she moved
slowly, and her voice was sweet and soft.
She never embraced us. She would greet us and take out hot little
hands in her own beautiful cool one, with blue veins standing out on
the back of it, as though the white skin were almost too delicate to
contain them.
Tante Sanna would bring in dishes of sweet, sweet, sticky candy, or
a great bowl of grapes or peaches, and Great-aunt Stephina would
converse gravely about happenings on the farm ,and, more rarely, of
the outer world.
When we had finished our sweetmeats or fruit she would accompany us
to the stoep, bidding us thank our mother for her gift and sending
quaint, old-fashioned messages to her and the Father. Then she would
turn and enter the house, closing the door behind, so that it became
once more a place of mystery.
As I grew older I found, rather to my surprise, that I had become
genuinely fond of my aloof old great-aunt. But to this day I do not
know what strange impulse made me take George to see her and to tell
her, before I had confided in another living soul, of our
engagement. To my astonishment, she was delighted.
"An Englishman,"she exclaimed."But that is splendid, splendid. And
you,"she turned to George,"you are making your home in this country?
You do not intend to return to England just yet?"
She seemed relieved when she heard that George had bought a farm
near our own farm and intended to settle in South Africa. She became
quite animated, and chattered away to him.
After that I would often slip away to the little cottage by the
mealie lands. Once she was somewhat disappointed on hearing that we
had decided to wait for two years before getting married, but when
she learned that my father and mother were both pleased with the
match she seemed reassured.
Still, she often appeared anxious about my love affair, and would
ask questions that seemed to me strange, almost as though she feared
that something would happen to destroy my romance. But I was quite
unprepared for her outburst when I mentioned that George thought of
paying a lightning visit to England before we were married."He must
not do it,"she cried."Ina, you must not let him go. Promise me you
will prevent him."she was trembling all over. I did what I could to
console her, but she looked so tired and pale that I persuaded her
to go to her room and rest, promising to return the next day.
When I arrived I found her sitting on the stoep. She looked lonely
and pathetic, and for the first time I wondered why no man had ever
taken her and looked after her and loved her. Mother had told me
that Great-aunt Stephina had been lovely as a young girl, and
although no trace of that beauty remained, except perhaps in her
brown eyes, yet she looked so small and appealing that any man, one
felt, would have wanted to protect her.
She paused, as though she did not quite know how to begin.
Then she seemed to give herself, mentally, a little shake. "You must
have wondered ", she said, "why I was so upset at the thought of
young George's going to England without you. I am an old woman, and
perhaps I have the silly fancies of the old, but I should like to
tell you my own love story, and then you can decide whether it is
wise for your man to leave you before you are married."
"I was quite a young girl when I first met Richard Weston. He was an
Englishman who boarded with the Van Rensburgs on the next farm, four
or five miles from us. Richard was not strong. He had a weak chest,
and the doctors had sent him to South Africa so that the dry air
could cure him. He taught the Van Rensburg children, who were
younger than I was, though we often played together, but he did this
for pleasure and not because he needed money.
"We loved
one another from the first moment we met, though we did not speak of
our love until the evening of my eighteenth birthday. All our
friends and relatives had come to my party, and in the evening we
danced on the big old carpet which we had laid down in the barn.
Richard had come with the Van Rensburgs, and we danced together as
often as we dared, which was not very often, for my father hated the
Uitlanders. Indeed, for a time he had quarreled with Mynheer Van
Rensburg for allowing Richard to board with him, but afterwards he
got used to the idea, and was always polite to the Englishman,
though he never liked him.
"That was the happiest birthday of my life, for while we were
resting between dances Richard took me outside into the cool,
moonlit night, and there, under the stars ,he told me he loved me
and asked me to marry him. Of course I promised I would, for I was
too happy to think of what my parents would say, or indeed of
anything except Richard was not at our meeting place as he had
arranged. I was disappointed but not alarmed, for so many things
could happen to either of us to prevent out keeping our tryst. I
thought that next time we visited the Van Ransburgs, I should hear
what had kept him and we could plan further meetings…
"So when my father asked if I would drive with him to Driefontein I
was delighted. But when we reached the homestead and were sitting on
the stoep drinking our coffee, we heard that Richard had left quite
suddenly and had gone back to England. His father had died, and now
he was the heir and must go back to look after his estates.
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